Today is good

For everyone watching my meltdown this week. I just wanted to say...besides the flat tire on the way to work today...today is going OK. Now if the auto repair shop calls and tells me that it is going to be a $1,000 repair I might loose it. But for now, things are looking up!

What to do with a broken heart?

Listen to sad songs?


Ok, I LOVE KENNY CHESNEY. I LOVE DAVE MATTHEWS. I LOVE THEIR NEW SONG. BUT MAN DOES IT HIT MY HEART THIS WEEK. I honestly can't walk away from the song, I punish myself & blubber while listening to the ENTIRE SONG, EVERY DAMN WORD.


I've said it before, and I'll say it again. Growing up is risky business. Being a Mom is riskier.


Here are the lyrics: Eat your heart out...

So damn easy to say that life’s so hard
Everybody’s got their share of battle scars
As for me I’d like to thank my lucky stars that
I’m alive, and well



It’d be easy to add up all the pain
And all the dreams you sat and watched go up in flames
Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain
But not me, I’m alive



And today you know that’s good enough for me
Breathin' in and out's a blessin' can’t you see
Today's the first day of the rest of my life
And I’m alive, and wellI’m alive, and well



Stars are dancin’ on the water here tonight
It’s good for the soul, when there’s not a soul in sight
But this boat has caught its wind and brought me back to life
Now I’m alive, and well



And today you know that’s good enough for me
Breathin' in and out's a blessing can’t you see
Today is the first day of the rest of my life
Now I’m alive, and well



Yeah I’m alive, and well

How to say goodbye...

With all the excitement of my last post, and how I thought I was 'in the clear' at 9 weeks & pregnant, it is terribly sad for me to say out loud, I have lost the baby.


As my husband is in the next room with football blaring on the TV, so loud I can't even think, or type real feelings. So loud that when I just yelled "hey hun could you turn it down" he snortted his snotty nose at me. I take that as a 'I can't hear you' moment. I HATE FOOTBALL. But this could be an entire post for a different day.


Ah peace. He has put the TV on mute.

So today I am trying to concentrate on peace, quiet & taking a little me time to grieve my baby and look forward to what God has in store for me.

Hello October!

So we’ve been terribly busy! Or have we? I think about my blog often. REALLY OFTEN. And I miss it. It is such a great outlet for so many emotions.

Olivia is in such a fun fun stage right now I can’t stand to pry myself away from her at nights to play on the computer! She is talking. Walking, doing oh so many fun things!
Work has been nuts! I used to use this time to post a little snip of our lives for you all to check out, BUT I have had so little time!

So enough with the excuses…how are all of you?!

Summer was a crazy whirlwind. Can we even call it summer? Between the below average temperatures and chasing a crazy 1 yr old around we were lucky to make it out to the cabin once a month. NOW THIS IS AGAINST OUR RELIGION. In years past, a weekend NOT at the lake was considered wasted time, guilt trip ridden, or possibly being banned from the family. But luckily my family learned that having a little runner around is not as relaxing at the lake with mountainous hills, brick stairs & oh so many ‘ouchies’ waiting to happen!!!

And did I mention we are PREGNANT AGAIN!? J I don’t think I did! Ha I just came out of the closet on Olivia’s Blog!!! 8 weeks and 1 day! Due date tentatively set for May 26th (drum roll please!) dun dun dun…this means I will have THE ENTIRE SUMMER OFF WORK NEXT YEAR!!!! Can I get a “Yee-Haw”?!

As with many things in my life, I chose to take the summer off blogging. Please see this as a ‘norm’. I take Church off in the summer, after work activities off, and blogging! I promise next summer, I will take off too! So I’m back and I hope to have lots of great convos to post up for your wild entertainment!

XOXO, Trish